I’m fvcking pissed right now. Who the hell wouldn’t be if you’re in my place.
I’m glad that people appreciate my Photoshop abilities. I’m actually thinking of making it a side line so at least I have something to do and I get paid! I’m super okay with people asking me to edit something for them. Because I enjoy it. I usually don’t ask for paybacks because I’m shy. And I don’t know how to give prices. Even my niece offered me money but I hesitated when she asked me to edit an “art” for her friends that she would give as a gift. Ang sa akin lang naman..
Eh kaninong pabor ba yun? Sa’yo diba. Um-oo lang naman ako. Kasi magkaibigan tayo. Kasi gusto ko kahit papa’no maging part ako ng debut mo dahil walang kasiguraduhan yung regalo ko ’cause I’m not in school and I don’t have anything to give. Nakakainsulto lalo when you said, may school kasi ako eh.. ikaw ba? Eh putang ina! Ikaw na pumapasok. I know you didn’t mean it that way, pero tumagos eh. Tapos magstatus ka pa na kaibigan kapag may kailangan, bastusan kapag wala. SINO BANG MAY KAILANGAN IN THE FIRST PLACE. So pinapatamaan mo sarili mo ngayon?
I tried calming myself after that. I talked to my best friend because she’s a close friend of yours too. I WAS STILL WILLING TO DO IT. Even though another friend of mine said, kung ako yan.. di ko na gagawin. Kasi nakakainsulto lang na um-oo na nga ako sa hiningi mong pabor, ako pa gusto mong pahirapan. I don’t like writing when my emotions are too high because I know sometime in the future I’ll be regretting this. Pero nakakainis eh. Ako pa yung nagmukhang masama.
So ano, nasa mood na akong gumawa. When I PMed you, I found out you asked somebody to make another one for you. Eh di sila na magaling. Sila na gagawa! Leche. Sana you didn’t ask me na lang, mas nakakainsulto lalo. If you have other people in mind na gusto mo ring pagawain, dapat sila na tinanong mo. Nakakainis lang. Sooobrang nakakainis.
So I decided not to say YES easily. Sisiguraduhin ko muna ngayon kung ako ba talaga yung gustong pagawain. Baka mamaya iba naman pala, wag na lang. :|